I feel like I’ve lost a friend. Almost like they died. and its not like they just moved on to better things. But Im left with this feeling of abandonment and the feeling that everyone well hates me.. Ive only felt this feeling one other time in high school and maybe i was depressed and maybe I never figured it out or maybe I just forgot how to deal with it.. Today Straight sucked. it felt like I didn’t matter it felt like I could not be around and no one would care. I felt isolated and alone. it was like that first day of lunch and not knowing who to sit with. It doesn’t help that the people I confided in are gone and the feeling like I don’t have that with the new people here has washed over. It just well sucks because if this was last year Id be legit sitting in someones apartment well crying. instead im sitting in a stupid room by myself just well crying. Hoping someone will care and the shit thing is the people I thought would well don’t and maybe thats the worst part..